Searching for Greatness...or atleast Normality

 

So far we have discussed a few of my least favorite attributes.

I'm a worrier. I'm impatient. I'm beyond competitive. And the problem I'm battling now is being a "finisher"...is that a word?

 

I live in an instant world, and that's the way I've always liked things. I "buy it now" on ebay. I'll prepare for things months ahead of time instead of waiting (I've been Xmas shopping since May) and I'd rather leave the store with a lesser version of something than leave with nothing at all. So when I started on this journey, I wondered to myself if I could actually do this. Can I stay motivated to make myself a better person, wife, and mother? This is something I've always struggled with; being a better version of myself. I use mascara and cover up....because that's what I know how to use. I wear ponytails because hair styling is a foreign language to me. And my fashion sense has always been a little behind on the times. I settle for being comfortable, when I know I'd rather be outside of the box.

 

As a senior in High School, we picked adjectives to place in the yearbook that described our personality. I chose; offbeat

This describes me to a tee.

I was a Percussionist (drummer) in the Marching Band who also Played Volleyball.

I did Speech League and Drama club, yet I can bevery shy. 2 years later I'm still getting used to the fact that in Bill's family they are "Huggers". And I'm a great leader who loses motivation when I don't yeild results.

Out of all the things that I am, I refuse to add Quitter to the list.

1 day in the last 9 I didn't do a project and I didn't like the way it felt.

Improving myself will not be an "instant fix"

It's a process that I am enjoying to the fullest

 

1. I baked desserts with ingredients I usually turn my head at (Pumpkin and Apple)

 

 

2. I'm preparing my Children for the Future

 

 

 3. I spoke with Kindess and lets face it...I bit my tongue

I appreciated when I could have coveted

 

 

4. I made several new meals

and have planned for several more

 

 

 5. I've gotten this far in knitting my Scarf...or bookmark

 

 

6. I'm getting more organized

 

 

 

 

 

". . . I want it said of me by those who knew me best, that I always plucked a thistle and planted a flower where I thought a flower would grow."
-Abraham Lincoln